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Tuesday, June 27, 2006

I WILL STOP GIVING IN.

I WILL NOT SWALLOW DOWN EVERYTHING ANYMORE.

AND I WILL STOP YOU FROM HUMILIATING ME.

It's about time i did something about this situation.
Cause everyone has been too accomodating to you.
And its not only me who claims that statement okay.

Maybe its because i've been depressed recently.
Thats why i am abit more sensitive.
But really, you crossed that line.
And i am not gonna tolerate with this anymore.

Maybe i'm just too soft hearted in the past.
Always the one who apologises though not in the wrong in the first place.
Thats why you've learnt to take advantage.

Or maybe this is just you.

Well if you want a friend that you can make fun of,
Then i'm sorry to say that i am not one of them.

I'm not an entertainment outlet.
And honestly, i don't find myself very amusing either.

I guess that after you find out that i'm talking about you,
You'd try to fight back for yourself.
You? Apologetic? HA!
Cause to you, i am always wrong.
All the fault lies with me.
Tell me, when was the last time you said sorry first during each of our squabbles?
And when it comes to the time when you say "I'm sorry too.",
Do you even mean it?
Do you even realise that you that you have at least abit of fault?
Or do you say it just for the sake of saying?

I don't care what the outcome will be.
I don't care if i have to go to school or come home from now on all by myself.
If you're gonna stay this way, there's nothing more i can do about it.

I'm not gonna be last time.
Just be like, "Oh speak to Keith or Charmaine about it. Then let the matter rest lah."

Besides, you have a million reasons to detest me.
Cause i'm such a detestable person.
And you know why too.

Really, you might be prettier, more capable or super popular.
But even though i am less competent than you,
I still have my sense of pride.
And i still need to be treated with that very basic respect.

I was never really bothered by your disturbing behaviour last time.
And trust me, you wouldn't wanna know the defination of disturbing.
I totally accepted you for who you are.

And i totally swear that i've never bad mouthed you behind your back.
I've always treated you as my best friend.
I've never let someone else have a very horrible impression of you.
But i guess you did stuff like that before.
And its so damn disappointing.

I might be a hypocrite.
But definately not as hypocritical as you.

Let me tell you that i still have people who love me.
People who respect me.
People who knows that i am still human.

And i am not gonna fake that smile anymore.
There were some occassions where i really felt like just storming away.
And when that happens again,
I PROMISE,
I am just gonna walk away.

It's time i tried to do something about my life.
About my unhapiness.
Like Miss Kelly Lim said, "If you don't like it, then change!"
And yes, i am so gonna change the colour of my life.

Okay, so i kinda feel better letting all these out. :D

But overall, its a bad day.
A bad week.
And i hope things will take a better turn.

If anyone wants to start hating me, so be it.
I can't be bothered anymore.
You're just hurting another human on earth.
And its your sin, not mine.

Off to speak to my counsellors.
And this time, not let the matter rest. (:

xoxo,PEARLYN!
7:25 PM

FINALLY.
THE PAGE LOADED.

*smacks forehead*

Right, having free time in IT lesson now so i guess i shall blog.
It's kinda boring actually.
*yawns*
AND THE COMPUTER IS AWFULLY SLOOOOWWWWWW.
I repeat, SLOW.
But what can you do about it?
40 over computers sharing ONE pathetic wireless connection, I GUESS.
I don't know, not very in to these kinda techy stuff anyway.

OHOHOH.
And i realised that my previous entry was very harsh.
*sprays holy water*
But ohwell..

1/1 IS GONNA HAVE A CLASS BLOG!!!
:D
Though its not touched up yet,

PRESENTING..

*drum rolls*

http://oneoneohsix-.blogspot.com

HAHAHAHA!
But please, don't go there now.
ITS A DISASTER.
I promise we'll come up with a uber nice skin.

OHOHOH.
And i have to blog about this.

I JUST WENT FOR DENTAL!

But it kinda hurts though.
I SAW LOTS OF BLOOOOD.
(Btw, blood is neither a solution nor suspension. IT IS A COLLOID.)
Oh crap, ignore that!

Remember, the dental clinic is an EVIL place!
*roars with never-ending lines of "Muahahaha"s*

AND YESTERDAY,
Charmaine spent TWO FULL HOURS sleeping at my house.
HAHAHAHAHA.
It was so funny.
She die also don't wanna wake up.
Cos i pulled up out my sofa bed.
I was playing with daddy's old laptop and she just lay down beside me.
Before you know it, SHE WAS ALREADY ASLEEP.
Ohmygosh.
AND WE WERE SUPPOSED TO JAM AND DO OUR CHINESE PROJECT!

Right, so i guess we'll have to arrange that another time.

AHHHHHHH.
CHOIR LATER!
NELSON KWEI IS COMING!
Damnit.
*grits teeth*

I guess i'll stop here and work on my class blog.
BUHBYE! :D

xoxo,PEARLYN!
12:59 PM

Monday, June 26, 2006

RIGHT, I HOPE I DIDNT HEAR IT WRONGLY.

My dad just stared at my MYE results and said,

*holds breath*

"SO LOUSY."

And he said he didn't wanna sign it.
That fucking bastard.
Go ahead, say i'm heartless for cursing my dad.
But i had a very fucked up day okay.
Problems with fucked up friends and homework.
Oh and btw, today is Be Yourself Day.
Not COMMENT-ON-MY-FASHION/COLOUR-SENSE DAY.
STFU MAN.
I don't give a fucking damn about what you few people say about my outfit.
And if reading this gets you heated, then by all means, DONT READ.

AND DON'T BE AN ANGEL AND TELL ME NOT TO USE VULGARITIES.
I'LL GRAB YOUR HALO AND CRUSH IT INTO PIECES.

Right, back to the topic on my dad.

Its like, what the hell?
I SHALL SMACK THE EXACT SAME EXAM QUESTIONS ON HIS FACE, TURN HIM BACK INTO A 13 YEAR OLD, AND SEE HOW HE ATTEMPTS THEM.

Its not easy okay!
So what if he was top student.
BAH!
In MALAYSIA!
I'm not trying to be snobbish.
But compare the standard.
GET REAL MAN!

Its not as if i failed any subjects okay!
I mean, if i did, then its totally fine with me if you say my results are bad.
BUT YOUR EYES PASTE STAMP AH?!
KNN!
OPEN YOUR EYES WIDE NOW!
THERE WERE SOME A1s ON THE SCRIPT OKAY!
AND MY LEVEL POSITION IS NOT THAT LOW ALRIGHT.

I don't understand you at all man.
COME ON LAH!
You want me to be in the top ten?!
YOU EARN A MILLION BUCKS FOR ME FIRST LAH!
I don't see you being a very good example in your career either.

I'm not trying to be hao lian or whatever.
But i don't seem to get better treatment compared to those who did lousier than me.
In fact, i get nothing but shit from you!

I REALLY WANNA SAY THIS.
YOU ARE AN UNSUPPORTIVE FATHER.
When was the last time you encouraged me?
Or cheered me on?
When was the last time you showed interest in something i did?

And when i once in a blue moon ask for something special,
You buy it for me.
But after that you start grumbling on how much fault i have.
Just because you spent that sum of money on me.
Hello?!
The amount you spent on me is not even equavilent to how much mummy spends on family every week.
And it was a birthday present that you PROMISED to get for me.

And i can tell all of you guys that i am not demanding AT ALL.

He hardly touches his wallet.
Don't know where he spend his money.
And my mum gets ALL THE BURDEN.
Oh and btw, I NEVER get a cent of pocket money from my father.

I SAVE UP FOR MOST OF MY STUFF OKAY.

I know there are people who keep saying that i "qiao" my parent's money.
BUT STUFF LIKE MY CRUMPLER, GUITAR AND HANDPHONE,
I SAVED UP FOR THEM OKAY.
AND ITS NOT EASY DOING THAT OKAY.
IMAGINE SOME DAYS STRUGGLING ON 5 BUCKS EVERYDAY FOR 3 MEALS.

IT IS DIFFICULT.

Oh and the worst thing that he ever said was that i'm a proud councillor, thats why i don't have many friends.
FUCK YOU MAN.
YOU HURT ME SO BADLY.
YOU'RE THE LAST PERSON THAT I WANNA HEAR THAT STATEMENT FROM.
HOW COULD YOU BLURT OUT SUCH STUFF?!

YOU DON'T DESERVE MY RESPECT AT ALL.
IF YOU DON'T WANT SUCH A, like you said, LOUSY DAUGHTER,
THEN THROW ME IN FOR ADOPTION LAH!
I RATHER LIVE WITH STRANGERS THAN BEAR WITH YOUR NONSENSE.

I DETEST YOU TOTALLY, LOSER.

xoxo,PEARLYN!
10:25 PM

Friday, June 23, 2006

I AM DAMN TIRED.
DAMN TIRED I AM.

I'm sorry.
Not able to update you with the sentosa pictures.
Dione haven't sent all of them over to me.
As soon as she does, i promise i'll blog, okay?

OKAYOKAY.
EXCLUSIVE PREVIEW.
HOLD YOUR BREATH.

GOSH.
I KNOW I ZI LIAN.
WHATEVER.

But i love this picture. (:
And i submitted it to http://smiles2006.com
Hahaha.
I'm afraid they hate my face.
And don't approve my entry.

Ohwell.

Hey don't i look abit weird without specs?
I was considering contacts that day with Dawn.
Then my parents were sensitive about it.
They were afraid that i might get eye infections or whatever.
Oh thats just a piece of crap only lah!
Argh.

OH I AND I LOST MY PHONE AT THE BEACH THE OTHER DAY!
DAMNIT.
WHATTAFUCK I CAN'T BELIEVE IT MAN.
THE WAVES ATE MY PHONE.

And now i lost all my contacts.
Yes, so please inform me of your number.
And i'm back using the ugly and pathetic Nokia 3100.

Anyway, me and Charmaine last minute hug buddha's foot.
Our HMT presentation was today and we only started on it last night at 11pm!
But hey, it turned out not bad alright!
Who said last minute work was bad, huh?

OH AND CHARMAINE IS IN ME AND DIONE'S GUITAR CLASS.
Hahahahaha.
It was pretty funny.
OHOHOH.
And i wanna learn the drums so badly. ):

Btw, choir has been tiring me out alot.
Spending 8 hours in school is just crazy.

AND IM SO HUNGRY AND TIRED NOW!

Argh.
I think i'm going to bed straight after i have dinner.

PROMSE I'LL BLOG AGAIN ASAP!
Take care people. :D

oh, and i have a sudden rush to talk to you.
i just have so much to tell.

xoxo,PEARLYN!
5:38 PM

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Right.

Let me announce that..
I AM GOD.
JOE IS WOMAN.
(HE, i mean SHE IS MY HUMBLE SERVANT.)

Hahahaha.
Well i was asking about what i should blog about and he suggested this.
So there you go.
Man, how boliao can i get?

Ohwell.
I guess i am hurt.
Yes, HURT.
I'll recite it a million times if that'll satisfy you.

I've accepted you for the way you are.
Your personality.
Your character.

So i swallowed down everything you said about me.
Of course, i know when you always SUAN me,
You don't have any bad intentions.
And you still do nice things for me.
Like faking that sms and stuff.
I know you meant well and just wanna cheer me up.

But when you say insulting stuff,
Though you might claim that you're joking in the end,
There must be some truth in that statement in the first place before you even have the intention of blurting them it right?

Ugh,
I don't know lah.
But i keep SWALLOWING.
I'm keeping everything inside.
Time after time i really feel like blowing up.
Or just nicely tell you.
But its just a stupid idea.
You'd probably just argue with me and i'd just be making myself more upset.

I just wanna say that I AM HUMAN.
No wait, I am God right?
Okay, ignore that.
I AM HUMAN.
And there's a limit to my tolerence.
And humans and God alike have feelings.

Ohwell..
I've said my piece.
I hope I didn't offend you or whatever.
But i just had to let it out.

Anyway,
TODAY I WENT OUT WITH CHARMAINE AND LYCIA!
The 7 bucks on watching The Omen was WELL SPENT man.
THE MOVIE WAS SO GOOD.
OH, its not for the faint hearted though.
You'd DIE in the cinema i tell you!

OHOHOH.
AND WE WENT TO EAT SAKAE.
*burps*
I'm still craving for my scallop nuggets!
AND THE SOFTSHELL CRAB MAKI.
Damn, i'm hungry.

There's choir tmr at 7.30am.
I BETTER GET SOME SLEEP!
:D

xoxo,PEARLYN!
2:38 AM

Monday, June 19, 2006

Wahahaha.
Sorry that im not blogging nowadays.
I mean, i dont have the pictures!
So i'll do that tmr when i get them okay?

FOR NOW, A QUIZ. -yawns-

DIONE wanted me to do this.

7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME:

1 - Lousy with words.
2 - Loves to sing.
3 - Loves to dance.
4 - Ugly.
5 - Attached to music.
6 - Shopaholic.
7 - Never has enough money to spend.

7 THINGS THAT SCARES ME :
1 - Cowards.
2 - Creepy crawlies.
3 - The dark.
4 - Bimbotic girls.
5 - When people pick on me.
6 - When people stare.
7 - Bad hairdays.

7 RANDOM SONGS AT THE MOMENT :
1 - Who Knew by Pink.
2- Unfaithful by Rihanna.
3- What's left of me by Nick Lachey
4- Dressed To Kill by New Found Glory.
5- Long Way to Happy by Pink.
6- Savin' Me by Nickleback.
7- Black Horse and the Cherry Tree by KT Tunstall.

7 THINGS I LIKE MOST :
1- My smelly bolster.
2- My handphone/mp3 player.
3- My clothes and bags.
4- Playing music on my piano/guitar.
5- Hanging out with Dione (counsellor).
6- Talking to Keith.
7- 29th April/9th May.

7 PEOPLE I WANT TO DO THIS :
1. Leanne.
2. Charmaine.
3. Delphine.
4. Mandy.
5. Krystal.
6. Dawn.
7. Keith.

ohwell..
hope you enjoyed that one. :D

xoxo,PEARLYN!
12:56 AM

Thursday, June 15, 2006

Who was the last person that..
1. Made you smile: dione?
2. Saw you cry: Dione.
3. Went to the movies with you : Karen, Andrea, Kat, Jordan, Keith, Jacinth
4. Talked to you on the phone: Mummy! (:

Do you prefer..
1. Flowers or candies : FLOWERS. definately.
2. Gray or black : gray? black's not my type.
3. Color or black and white photos : black and white. very vintage.
4. Lust or love : TRUE LOVE.
5. Sunrise or sunset : Sunset.
6. M&M's or skittles : M&M's! crispy kind.
7. Staying up late or waking up early: staying up late. :D

Answer honestly, do you..
1. Like anyone now : NO. im pure. OR MAYBE THE GUY AT THE MAGIC STORE?! -gasp-
2. Smoke : NEVER.
3. Steal : perhaps?
4. Do you believe in love at first sight : yeah, why not?
5. Do you fall for the wrong guy or girl? : TOTALLY.

Normal qns:
1. Sun or moon: MOON!
2. Tea or coffee : neither.
3. Left or right : right.
4. 10 acquaintances or having two best friends : two best friends.
5. Sunny or rainy : LET THE RAIN FALL DOWN.
6. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream : CHOCOLATE!
7. What time is it : 12.51am.
8. Name : Pearlyn Wee Jin Ling.
9. What is your birth date : 10/05/1993
10.What do you want right this second : PLAY MY GUITAR. oh and to ask Keith to teach me the DRUMS!
11. Where do you want to live : Australia -winks to Jordan-
12. How many kids do you want : 2. hahaha.
13. Do you want to get married : hell yes!
14. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it : i only eat penne, sorry.
15. Favorite ice cream flavour : CARAMEL! low-fat please.
16. How many kinds of cereal are in your cabinet : i finished the last box of coco crunch.
17. What's your favorite type of soda : F&N GROOVY GRAPE!
18. Do you cook : to a certain extent.

In the last month have you..
1. Bought something : duh. lots. let me see.. fbts? a new bikini? I NEED SHORTS! :/
2. Sang : OF COURSE! im from choir.
3. Been hugged : yeah.
4. Felt stupid : sure.
5. Missed someone : well, no.
6. Danced crazy : haven't done that for a long time. ):
7. Gotten your hair cut : NO! i love long hair.
8. Cried : whoa, cant keep count alr.
9. Hated anyone : yeah.
10. Said I love you : yeah.

RIGHT IM DONE.

wahahahaha.
I NEED MY SHORTS.
*wails*
I don't wanna look silly and fat wearing my swimsuit.
MY REMEDY: A PAIR OF SHORTS.
i saw one uber nice one at ROXY!
-gasp-
I SWEAR IM GONNA GET IT.

ohwell..
ITS LATE!
Gotta accompany granny to SGH for a checkup tmr.
-yawns-

BUHBYE!

xoxo,PEARLYN!
12:20 AM

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Right, i am back.

(:

Exactly one week, ain't it?
I've cleared my archives. (saved it somewhere else)
Gonna start all over again.

Well, i really shouldn't be blogging yet.
Uhhuh.
But at least i'm feeling so much better!
Physically, and mentally.

Thanks for everyone's concern. :D

And i'm simply touched by how some of you were willing to take time off to listen to me.
You know who you are.
God bless these beautiful people.

This one week, i did pretty much stuff.
Did a few layouts and submitted them to Blogskins.
Went out with my girls.
Dolled up my private blog.
You know, the kinda stuff that puts a smile of satisfaction on my face.

I hope you guys do like this layout.
I totally love how the two colours contrast.
Its not perfect, but at least its an effort.

Ohwell..
Its 2.47am.
I seriously need a sleep now.

Btw, you should really check out Pink's album.
And Yellowcard's was a disappointment. ):

TAG ME PEOPLE! (:

xoxo,PEARLYN!
2:55 AM